Figured i would post again since Christmas is right around the corner, since about a month ago i have had the worst time of my life and i never want anything to do with what i did ever again, i am scared, angry, and sick and alot of other things :<  i been just so OUT of my mind i havent been able to do things right since of last month which i would never want to bring up it because it sucked :< me like having no sex for along time :<<<<<<< i dont know just thought i would post, i been doing some web design been working on some coding etc.. just listening to music wondering whats going to happen next in my life ... maybe its the scariest thing ever ... and i don't want it to happen :o~ i dont know what im talking about im just a scared bitch ~!!!!!

i win so does canada, :P giving canadians jaeg, shit they never drank, also listening to other canadians talk about how much canada sucks, jeremy getting kicked out of a liquor store, ladies looking at steve wierd because he took a double shot of whiskey, free water bbq pop etcc.. random indians walking the streets, drinking at a lan, banks closed on saturdays, 20 mcdonalds workers, one jugglign tomatoes 4 out in the parking lot not doing any work at all. hot KFC girls, getting KFC for 3 dollars cheaper because canadians are nice. hrm what else "One Great City" <-- song rocks the city especially while driving thru winnipeg and listening to it. hrm canadians randomly waving at us while listening to "One Great City". internet sucking was cool and so was some 12 year old canadian girls macking on jeremy. loones and toonies are gay i gave canadian money away because it was worthless to me. listening to this guy say eh? like 13 or 14 times on the trip to KFC talking about the CFL, and how his plymoth laser kick ass. hrm, it was kind of a wierd exp. especially when there mayor is gay in la portage whatever city it was. and you can smoke weed there just cant sell it. hrm what else was funny, i suppose just making fun of canadians period was funny. Hopeing to go back on a thursday to go see canadian girls strip which could be cool. :P

welcome to my journal entries, i will hopefully keep up on everyday, i suppose i can start out with what exactly happened the previous night on the, i started out by going to the small town drunk concert @ mikes pizza, was very well executed by them. came there with lee collin jon and ended up sitting over by jeremy and talking to him and listening to the concert. after the concert was so well done, me and my friends parted our ways with mikes pizza parlor and ended up driving around for 30 minutues or so and after collin and lee so well decided to leave and go home for the night, me and jon decided it would be cool to go visit some of his sacred heart friends at taco bell where they so decidely ended up at, once we got to taco bell i was greeted by Missy butterfield that was working at taco bell at the time. We proceeded to go over to the booth where Ross, George and Lance were sitting. As i look over Lance just looks plastered, the poor helpless kid trying to eat a burrito while hes barley able to keep his head up, he sets his burrito down then pukes on himself, after that me and jon end up driving him and his car home. Once that was all done and over with me and jon decided undoubtly that we would head over to zoes to see what kind of shin dig they were having. We approached the house lighting our cigars and preparing for what was ahead of us. We came inside and the house was packed 20 or so people. Alcohol everwhere. I ended up drinking a little. but it was a great time getting to meet all the members and partying with them, they are all great guys. Meeting patrick dusty, eric, donovan, kelsey, and joe. Also was glad to see famaliar faces that always lightnes the party and makes it a fun time. The night was great, all talking about steves drinking rage from the night before when he thought GOD pulled him from the bathtub while talking to jeremy on the phone, also patrick talking about his shroom fun times, and Rea talking about her fav. bands and downloading music :P . We ended playing guitar and listening to chinkie chang charlie play guitar also, very entertaining. Then Jeremy coming back in the party just totally ripped off his ass but yet having a great time just chilling. The night ended great with me just passing out and everyone else just following what i had done. Woke up this morning with no hang over and just relaxing, watched a couple DVD music video discs. After that helped zoe clean up, then headed over to Jers house. After sitting there for a few minutes we decided to go to Cyberzone and play a couple rounds of pool after him beating me once and then him screwing himself with scratching on the 8 ball we decided to go grab wendys thats where the night ended him bringing me back home from Cyberzone after getting done eating Wendys. It was a great night and day of fun. Hope you enjoy reading this and hope i continue on writing in these journals everday.